Today we went shopping to a supermarket and again I was amazed with the abundance we can see all around us. And as my credit card still works we were able to buy all the things I wanted. And it was strange, as before I used to think about that I didn’t have enough money, didn’t have enough income and that kind of ruined our shopping. And I never understood my partner at that time. And maybe I’m stupid buying all this stuff today while I have no clue where to get the money to pay for it when my credit card is due. But no, I don’t think so, as I’m starting to see what the ideas of the Law of Attraction are about, or at least the ideas I got related to that from the 30 day law of attraction program.
You see, one of the things i realized was that it wouldn’t really make any difference whether I would worry about where to get the money or not. We need the stuff anyhow and also buying a few more things or a few more things of a more expensive brand won’t really change anything in our financial situation. And before of course I knew this also rationally. But I didn’t feel it and therefore often was very worried and negative going shopping. So besides not having the money, or not enough, or not enough in my perception, I just made things worse by focusing on that. So before that often ruined my day, my shopping, my mood, the mood of my partner and many more things.
And today was different, which was weird, as actually I’ve never been in a worse financial shape than now and I still don’t see any improvement in that either. And don’t get me wrong, I don’t like it and it does affect my life in a negative way in some way. But unlike before I am now starting to refuse to let it ruin my life, ruin my day. And this means also that I see many more positive things around me, like today again I saw the abundance in the supermarket, all the products that are there in quantities I or my partner and I or the people in our household even together with friends could never consume. And again I saw many people behind all this, the service staff and a bit of the supply chains behind all this, behind the ‘providing me my food and other daily needs’. And I can only see a small part, as while thinking about these things there are thousands and thousands, maybe even ten thousand or more people involved in providing me with the stuff we bought today.Those few boxes and plastic bags with household stuff like foods and toilet stuff and cleaning stuff.
And again, don’t get me wrong as I don’t know where this goes with my life and my finance and if this law of attraction stuff (crap?) saying something like that with more positive vibrations I attract more positive stuff. But while writing this somehow it does already. As there are visiting more people this house recently for example, and that’s one of the things I wanted. And I don’t have so many fights with my partner anymore.
And no matter what, no matter this little tiny voice in my mind somewhere saying i’m stupid with this overspending, I do feel happier and I did have a happier day seeing more positive things. And is it really overspending? I work hard enough and I would love to pay all the dues I have. But the work is just not paying enough (yet?) and other money is not flowing in yet, so indeed, why not have a more positive mindset and be happy. What can be wrong with that?