The last days, weeks, maybe months I have been starting to follow my inner feelings a bit more, something like following Infinite Intelligence a bit more. And it takes me away from all those pressuring things I feel and felt from what everybody, what the world has taught me over the years, since I’m in this world.
And it seems that whenever I do that, follow my inner feelings, the more I do that, no matter how weird or ‘bad’ it seems, things are falling more into place, things go smoother in the end.
Like often I just move around, sit or lie down somewhere or grab a book or some other text or something when I feel ‘bad’ and want to feel better, want to do something ‘good’, feel ‘good’. And mostly, if I just follow my gut feel, I end up with something useful, with something that I just need at that moment.
And there is still this ‘have to’ feeling, that has been with me so long and that has been so bad for me. Like the last few weeks, months, my daily schedule has moved from ‘normal day times’ to something like ‘noon’ to ‘long after midnight’ and I consider it bad. And I’m not happy with it. But I don’t know what to do with it, how to change it back, back to normal.
But my ‘not moving’ all goes back to some deep unhappiness, some deep feeling of unfulfillment, some feeling of ‘wrong’ that I can’t, couldn’t get hold of. And I know it has everything to do with ‘not being me’, not accepting or appreciating who I am, following others too much.
And slowly I’m letting go of that. Slowly I’m accepting that this is who I am, that what I feel is the right thing, that if I feel like lying down it’s often, or maybe always the right thing to do. That it’s not plainly ‘laziness’ as my partner often calls it.
So this morning again, when I was later again than I thought, but at least a little earlier than yesterday, I got this impulse of getting the ‘next day’ of the “thirty day program of Abraham Hicks“, at the moment meaning I’m just getting the next or what feels like “the next” from my pile of papers.
And I found this (from the teachings of Abraham Hicks):
“Only by seeing examples of others who appreciate and approve of and like themselves, can anyone be inspired to self-appreciation. Unfortunately, there are few such examples around.
You would recognize one another who truly appreciates him[her]self by noting these characteristics:
They are genuinely happy. Not offering insincere smiles but the warm and genuine smile that comes from the eyes as well as the heart. They are one who appreciates you, seeing things in you that you would like to see in you, pointing out to you things that you, perhaps, have never seen about yourself…
SELF-APPRECIATION IS ESSENTIAL TO JOYFUL LIFE EXPERIENCE.”
and this:
Allowing Others The Same Freedom:
“Once you understand the power of thought, you will joyously experience your own freedom to express and to be as you are – while you will be willing to allow all others the same freedom. As more of you reach this state of being, it will be a time of peace and a time of contentment and a time of wondrous joy upon your Planet Earth.
The Law of Attraction and the Law of Creation are universal. They apply to all dimensions and to all experience, physical and Non-physical. And just as they apply to your individual creating, to that creating that does not involve others, such as the maintenance of perfect health – they also appy to what you create, through the form of agreements, one with another.”
And especially the first part struck me, as that seems the core of what I have been looking for. Seeing examples of others, feeling inspired by others.
And again, that’s what this whole site is about, that’s what I want to give to the world.
So for me the answer for today seems to be that I first need to appreciate and approve of myself before I can inspire others.
And the same of course would apply to you.
And I just found a page on Psychology Today that may be interesting to read more about this: love yourself.